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Self Reflection

Thought I would show my face on my blog again...

…because I can’t remember last time I did. And this might come as a shock to some of you at home, and to you who is interested in my style. Because this is a drastic change from the girl who left Norway to who I am now.

Who would have thought 3 years ago that I would stop abusing my hair with 1 bottle of hairspray monthly and over teasing it?

Now I hardly use anything. A little dry shampoo/dust it every now and then, a tiny spray of hairspray for hold. A little anti-frizzy spray to tame the crazy effect the english weather has on my hair. Oh, and absolutely no teasing anymore.

Who would have thought that? I certainly wouldn't.

Who would have thought 1 year ago that I would stop using fake lashes, tons of eyeshadow and a fat eyeliner?

Now I hardly use eyeliner any mire. In fact, I have only used eyeliner twice since the start of october. That’s over a month ago. I haven’t used fake lashes since the summer. Although I miss it sometimes, it is not something I want to wear every day anymore. And guess what, I have gotten more confident about my eyes.

 I don't feel like they are to small anymore.

I have in fact gotten more comfortable with my make-up free face due to more natural make-up. I feel more free, that I am more me than ever. That I have finally found myself, rescued myself from drowning in cosmetic and styles that doesn’t represent me.

I can still do gyaru inspired make-up if I want to, but it isn’t a style that define me any more. I love it. And I love my eyes. I also love having a soft and heathy hair. After all that teenage abuse it really deserve me growing up and becoming more mature.

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So this is life…

This is pretty much my life right now. Quite similar to last week.

Well, actually I am sitting much more up right now, because I suddenly felt much better. So there weren’t much need for me to roll around in bed with my blanket and my mac, risking it to almost fall on the floor or get over heated. Just kidding, I would never risk my mac like that~! But yeah, I got pretty mad yesterday when I got a fever again. Having a harsh cold for a whole week is pretty much enough, I didn’t need it all over again.

I got better! So what the actual f**k happened? I might have gone out sunbathing too soon, but who would be able to resist 25-28 degrees? I also might have hit the town with my girls too soon. But the mood was so right, and it was a good chance it would be our last time. So how could I resist THAT? And the fatal blow might have been that I felt so great I decided to work out on Tuesday. Then the fever hit me again, and I just thought “fuck my life…”, bought some orange juice and crept underneath my blankets again..

But now I am feeling better again!

And I’m wondering if I need to visit the doctor tomorrow… What if I just need to relax until it 100% gone. Why would I get better if it was a bacterial infection? Why spend money just to get told that it is a virus after all and I can’t get medicine for it? Gah…

To end this entry with something positive; 1. I am feeling better. 2. I am looking forward to the weekend. Because someone has asked me on a weekend trip to their cottage/cabin/country home. Not totally what to call it. But, it might be nice to get away for a weekend and totally relax. Because all this town and my room is reminding me of right now is being sick.

okay, ending personal ranting/complaining entry here~

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Do you really think youre right about why I do this?

  • Why are girls in general scared of lifting heavy weights?
  • Why do most men think well-built women’s are scary/ugly?
  • Why do people think that girls with muscles is unfeminine?
  • Why do people think that girls at the gym are there to lose weight?
  • Why is it that people think someone is doing low carb diet just because they care about sugar in food?
  • Why is it so bad to care about eating healthy?
  • Why do people think someone is a health freak because they’re interested in food and exercise?

So many questions in my head before hitting the gym today. It made me realise that there’s no freaking wonder why I just can’t bother talking/writing about how much I enjoy eating healthy and work out. Because everyone is going to think I’m a diet-get-slim-obsessed-only-eating-low-carb-food girl. It’s so sad that most of us gets placed in these boxes by prejudging people who have no idea about our reasons for doing what we do.

 No, I am not at the gym to slim down.

I am there to get stronger, to get more muscles, to GAIN weight. No, I do not put a lot of thoughts in what I eat because of calories, low carb diets or “I’m cutting out sugar”. I care because my body feels more energetic and happy when I eat clean and right. And I care because I need to be eating more calories that what I burn to gain weight. I don’t want to be gaining weight by stuff burgers, fries and pizzas down my throat.

There's a difference in being obsessend and being dedicated.

I am so tired of suppressing these interest of mine because I don’t want to be unfairly judged, because I don’t want to get those stereotype stamp on me. Maybe there’s a little piece of me being a bit scared of putting this side of me out there. I feel that this “me” on this blog is getting shallow because I never put my thoughts out here. Enough of it.

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27th of January – Monkeybone City

What’s this new trend, just blogging every second day? Well, honestly school is taking up much time and lately I’ve prioritized friends and SLEEP. I’ve been a little bothered with tiredness even tho I’ve slept enough lately. Started around summer time, just no energy and tired. So I went to the doctor and took some tests. I was told I needed to take 3 months with iron supplements.

Here I am 6 months later and more tired than ever. I got the energy, I’m just tired without reason. I had the flu recently and it’s quite normal to be a little tired some weeks afterwards, BUT this is beyond normal! I sleep for 7-8 hours, but I am so tired through the day I hardly manage to keep my eyes open if I sit still. Like the kinda tired you are if you have been up for hours past normal when you have pushed the border a little. Can’t take more iron supplements before consulting with my doctor so…

 

With fringe down~

Braided the fringe to~

Anyways, I have found myself a new favorite hairstyle! Braids! I didn’t knew I could make these, I just tried out randomly one day and have been hooked ever since. So quick and easy to do in the morning. I’ve gone from being a Hairspray addictive bitch to thinking about my hairs health way to much. I’ve realised that if I want my hair to get long, I have to make sure it’s healthy and happy~

Me drinking coffee~~

I wore false lashes at school for the first time today! Was kinda scary, I was so worried that they would fall of or something weird. IDK how the glue is acting when it rains and is windy so I start to cry when walking to school. Didn’t to the bottom lashes, thought I would start “soft” so I don’t shock my classmates. Anylash, I am getting used to use them every day~! So far the statics are Lashes VS. Me: 1-3!

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Naoki-chan